Wow ok, so I gotta be honest in writing this post. Today was quite a day. To be fair it was a Monday, and that's probably why it was so crazy.
Regardless, its a whole new experience for me to understand the pressure of a project. Up till now things had been pretty relaxed at work which was great. But honestly I like being busy more. While sometimes that involves being frantic, I'm definitely sharper and on my game on those busy days.
However, being busy at a grocery store and being busy with a project that is your own are two different types of busy. The first is more what you would feel when everyone else is looking to you to be on time which is to be expected with customers. But being busy and under pressure from your project is more what it feels like when you overbook your calendar... Because everything you planned is still under your control and your success depends on you. There may be other people at the company expecting results... but when you know you have something due based on your own deadline, there's no body to point fingers at.
While pointing fingers and throwing blame has never been my thing and its not at all what I'm looking for today, it really just makes me realize. I'm in charge of this. Yes I have the help and support of everyone I'm working with (thank God), yes I am only an intern, but if I want to say I succeeded in my own eyes, it's really up to me. I guess this applies to a lot of things, but it really hit home today.
Yes, today was insane. The craziness was a good change of scenery but still not a pleasant experience. Lots of things went unnecessarily wrong that were outside my control. There were several people that helped me sort out the kinks and for that I am extremely grateful. But ultimately this project is up to me, and I will be responsible for making it succeed.
I can do this!
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