January 01, 2017

Happy New Year

Dear 2017,

Everybody has been ready for you since about September. Now you are finally here and I'm starting to feel like life is going too fast.  During you, I turn 20. I will have lived two decades. It probably doesn't seem like much, but from my perspective it does.  Right now, things should be picking up.  So much is already being expected of me, and there's more to come.  It is around this time that many things are supposed to happen, and life is supposed to follow a certain path.  My hope for you is that nothing veers too out of line, that new "firsts" will come my way and broaden my horizons.  I hope that you will be filled with good, and happy surprises and blessings.  Every year brings its own sorrows with it, but I hope you show me, and everyone, more love than hate, more good than bad, and always more happiness.

I pray that you will open my mind to greater possibilities, show me how to be more optimistic and positive, and reign in my reactions.  Please also show me how to be a better person, daughter, friend, girlfriend, geologist, granddaughter, and everything else that I am and want to be.

My only new year's resolution is to learn from you; about the world, about life, and about me.

Please teach me. I want to grow.

August 22, 2016

Open Letter to College Students

To all of my friends and acquaintances returning to or starting college:

This year is going to be great.  If you’re a freshman, moving in might seem kind of scary, being away from home can kind of suck, but you’ll survive.  You’re going to meet all types of new people, probably many that you won’t like.  But that’s okay, you don’t have to like everybody.  And the few you do find that are worth keeping will help you on your journey as much as you will help them. 

You will be stressed, you will fear tests and teachers and projects, but you will make it.  Sometimes you might feel stupid, like you shouldn’t be where you are.  I promise you, you are not stupid.  You took the same tests as everyone else to get to where you are, and you endured your own suffering, just like they did.  Everybody deals with stress and tiredness, its how we come out of it that determines who we are.  If we give in, we won’t get anywhere.  But if we keep going, do our best to accept the circumstances as what they are and work with them, we all have the potential to overcome all obstacles. You deserve your shot, and you have earned it.  Go make the most of it. 

But keep in mind it will not be easy.  Even so, always give everything you do 100%. Your homework, your classes, your friends, your relationships, and yes, even your fun. Especially your fun.  You may find yourself with less free time, so enjoy it to its fullest too.  And sometimes this will mean faking it.  It is not always possible to get enough sleep, or finish your homework on time, or make straight A’s.  But no matter what, never quit.  You can do this.  You have it in you to make it, and you will do it.

And even when it’s really hard and nothing is working the way it should, keep smiling.  Even when you’re feeling the worst, smiling will always make it better (even if it’s fake).  So take a second to smell the fresh air when you walk to class.  Really feel the sun on your skin or the cold wind in your lungs.  And smile. Because everything is going to be okay. 

May 21, 2016

Chips and Cracks

I realized something tonight while I was having a conversation with my boyfriend.  I know I've written similar things before about people being imperfect and unique, but this is a different perspective on that.

People are like old, worn, teacups. Each of us has a different set of cracks and chips from where we've fallen apart and been put back together.  Some of our rims might be thicker or more delicate, some of us might be pretty or simple.  Some of our cracks may run deeper than other cups.  But we are all subjected to changes.  We may be used for containing hot liquids or cold, or perhaps we get dropped too roughly in the sink.  But all of these changes affect the very material of who we are.  And, like a very loved and favorited teacup, each time we are dropped or start to crack, we are put back together by those who love us.  In the end each time we are dropped we do change some, and perhaps we don't retain our original character or luster.  And indeed we still carry sharp edges that may poke the ones who love us.  But in the end these chips and cracks do not matter because we are a favorite teacup of someone, and they will love us regardless.  Nobody enjoys being cut by a sharp piece of ceramic, but the cup contains more good qualities, memories, and personality than any of the others.  It is, after all, our favorite cup for a reason.

April 10, 2016

Breath of Fresh Air

Sometimes it's good to take a break. I know that in the rush of stress, and due dates, and responsibilities, it gets really hectic, but stopping for a moment can be so beneficial. I think that's something I've just really come to grips with lately. Sometimes I feel like there's so much to do and so much going on, and many times this is the case.  But it only gets really bad when I tell myself that "it'll get better once it's over." Sometimes this is the case, like with tests and studying.  Other times its not.  When you have a continual steam of things to do and you just keep pushing to reach the finish line, its not going to happen.  Chances are you'll reach your breaking point before you ever reach the end.  So when you're so busy doing the constant stuff and you're feeling overwhelmed, stop. Stop before your body really hits the wall and you start falling apart. Stop and take a breather so you can keep running in one piece. Read a book, take a hike, go out with friends, do something crazy and fun so you can start at it again with a fresh spirit and the courage and energy to make it through. Even if you feel like you don't deserve a break because you haven't done well on a test or a homework, you do deserve it because you tried. All we can do in life is keep moving forward, but sometimes it's necessary to wander off the beaten path for a change in scenery.

April 09, 2016

Second Place!!!

I'm so overjoyed to announce that the Colorado School of Mines Sliderulers won second place in the swing dance competition tonight! I'm so proud of my boyfriend and his team for doing so well!!  Congratulations guys, you definitely earned it! Next year its time to beat CU, once and for all!

P.S. Here is an updated and much higher quality video! Enjoy! :)

April 04, 2016

Best Weekend :)

I'm so happy I got to spend these last three days with my favorite person in the whole world. I had so much fun touring more of Rapid City with you!! I loved just being able to spend time with you again and forget about all the stress for a while! :) Though I already miss you so much, I can't wait to see you again, and I'm praying these last 5 weeks will go by quickly.  Love you soooo much! <3 

P.S. Thanks for the chocolate chips and the NEW WEEZER ALBUM!! :D I'm still so excited about that!    And helping me re-pot my plant. And being brave in getting the dirt for her. And yeah, you are just the best! :)

grin em

March 11, 2016

Spring Break, at Last!

What a gift Spring Break is.  You would think that two and a half months of college is nothing, after returning from Christmas Break, there is no motivation left.  But thankfully I've found a way to restore motivation!  Talk to the same people or relive the experiences that gave you the passion for what you pursue.  That's what I did!  After grinding away through a semester with no fun classes and no classes that are actually part of my field, I needed reminding of why I joined the field of geology.  Today I visited my earth science teacher from high school, the real inspiration behind my love of rocks, and I have returned with a renewed energy.  Even though the rest of this semester will probably still suck, I can't wait to start up my geo classes again next fall.  Hopefully that will be enough motivation to keep me rolling through the rest of the year!

Not only has it been a restorative time for my motivation, but I'm also getting things done.  I've been busy, but not busy in a bad way. More like catching up with the fun things I had to put aside when the semester began.  But now my to-do list is gradually shrinking and I'm happier than ever! Here's to looking forward to Easter Break, haha!